the endless curse of john

today i had a dream that someone i used to be close with died, in the dream they got inot a car accident and i only found out at school the next day. i left and ran to where we used to go and cryed and hugged the only thing i had left of them. all of the memories we shared flashed past and made the  pain worse i woke up and then actually cried.i couldnt tell if it had actually happend but evenif it hadnt the regret and sorrow was overwheling. i think this dream had some truth in it. even though the person is still alive they are lost to me. they severed our connection and left my life and like death i had no choice and no explination. i miss what we had, and i know that your the only one who can change it. only the one dyeing can chose to fight another day.